Domestic violence victim reacts to Ray Rice video

Domestic violence victim reacts to Ray Rice video

PARAGOULD, AR (KAIT) - A video released by TMZ Sports Monday could kill one running back's NFL career.

In the video, Baltimore Ravens running back, Ray Rice, knocks out his then- fiancé, Janay Palmer, with one punch in the face and drags her out of an elevator.

As of Monday, the Ravens have cut Rice and the NFL has indefinitely suspended him.

"There's many nights that my wife and I sleep together and we still have to deal with this and her pain is my pain, my pain is her pain," Rice said.

A Paragould domestic violence victim said she is glad the Ravens and the NFL took action because she knows firsthand that domestic violence is not something to take lightly.

"His favorite thing was choking you out, reviving you while kicking, smacking or punching you," she said. "Oh my Lord, in the end, I was so trapped. I was gasping for air like I was drowning. There was no way out."

That is how this victim, who wanted to remain anonymous, lived for more than six months.

"I was afraid for my life," she said. "But you're staying out of fear, fear for your life, fear of what they'll do. And no matter how many times you tell people, no one could believe it because of how charming and funny he is with everyone else. Then behind close doors, he is a monster."

She had the bruises to prove it.

"I was so deceived," she said. "They put on such a good front. They wait until you love them. You can't help but stay because you're in love."

And now she has the scars to never forget.   

"It breaks you," she said. "You're supposed to be loved but they just rip you to pieces. I found myself being a totally different person, like angry, angry! I can't even explain it. I got mean, myself. It didn't just affect me. It affected my whole family."

She eventually escaped to a different state, but said there is no happy ending to her story. A decade later, she is remarried but the trauma from her previous relationship haunts her. 

"I'm always flinching or I'm scared or worried any time my husband raises his voice," she said. "You never really get over it."

That is why she hates hearing stories of other victims, like Janay Palmer, Ray Rice's wife. 

"I can relate and I feel sorry for them," she said. "I just want him to know he has no clue of what it does. She could be strong on the outside but on the inside she's dying."

She said in her experience, if a man hits a woman, he will do it again even if he promises he won't.

"They're just like a drug addict," she said. "They will always do it again and again until they get help."

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